The last few months have been a struggle for me. I found myself on a path that seemed like it was going to never end. For some of my friends, I had fallen off the face of the earth. And there were days, I wish I could have.
Then the week I turned 40 something changed in me. I spent the first part of the week having the most pathetic pity party. Here I was unemployed, me and my girls are living with my parents, and just feeling lost. But on my birthday, I decided to get my cards out. Not just my Faery Oracle set, I got out my Heart of the Faery and my Mystic Faery Tarot. I wasn't sure what I wanted to ask them or if I would even get a reading out of them since it had been so long since I had used them. But I did a small spread and used all three decks, that was a first for me also. I got an amazing reading from them. I am not going to tell you about the reading because it wasn't really the reading that helped me, it was the fact that I still got a great reading. It was empowering.
So then I got back online, I chatted with a friend, and you know who you are. I hadn't told anyone how I was feeling or how low I got at this point till then. She listened to me and then gave me the "suck it up" speech and get back on my path.
That is what I have been doing. I have been spending so much time meditating. Grounding myself and healing myself. I didn't realize how dark my life had gotten.
Here is the amazing part, only after a week of trying to heal and pull myself together. I have gone on two job interviews. I was offered one of the jobs but because they wanted me to work certain hours, I would never get to spend time with my children. I had to turn it down. I don't know about the second interview yet but I felt really good about it.
So there you have it.....this is where I have been. I don't think I am on the downside off the path yet but I don't think it is to far off.
Blessings,
Ana
5 comments:
What a transition! It takes a lot of strength to admit when the darkness has taken hold. Then, it takes a lot of courage to face your monsters and conquer them! It's never an easy battle. (They wouldn't be called "battles" if they were easy.) Turning your life around and making it what you can and want to have takes time and perseverance. You should be very proud of yourself for the distance you've come. Chin up, Lady! You can pull yourself out of this funk! Heck! You've got a grand running start. *!_^*
So glad you feel empowered! The Universe is wrapping itself around you, and you are not lost...you are well on your way to a bright warm experience. Many blessings to you. Sometimes the we have to go through the darkness before we can find that spark of light to carry on.
<3 You. Im always here. <3 I cannot tell you how happy I am to see you around again. Missed you bunches!!!
So many good wishes to you regarding the job, and your path. Sometimes we stray or get a little lost, but we find our way back. Cheering you on!
The power of the cards - love it! I get that same feeling of peace when I read mine, and I don't blame you for keeping the reading secret. It's funny to me that I'll talk about my sex life with just about anyone but my readings? Nooo. Those are just for me! Good luck with the job.
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